Update!

So..

Okay.. clubbing with my sister went Soooooo awesome. I loved every second of it. :) Was so nice to let my hair down and be completely wild. Having my mum there wasnt half as bad as expected, and while I might not be letting her back into my life I certainly know that I can go to family events and get on amicably with her.

Life really has been a rollercoaster this last week or so. In and out of feeling shit, but I'm getting there. I'm finally taking my life by the horns and getting it sorted out. In no time ill be exactly where I want to be.

There are still people in my life that I'm not sure of my feelings for and people I know I know I should chuck out of my life but cant. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a sucker for punishment, because really.. hearing how great someone whos hurt you is doing serves nothing more than to hurt and annoy you further, but there you go. Sometimes telling people how you really feel is the best thing and other times it isnt, you dont really know which time is which so just go with your gut feeling, and if you get it wrong, well, everyone makes mistakes. This is something I've figured out through experience so .. yay me.

"honest to god ill break your heart, tear you to pieces and rip you apart" Its a line from a song I'm currently listening to. I like it, its kinda true for anyone in your life. Anyone who means anything to you has the ability to hurt you. Just depends if they do or not.

Ohhh! In awesome news work have taken me on perm :D yayaya! This makes me happy cause it means my plan is working out just right. *does the happy work dance*

I'm hoping to organise another night out with the girls soon, Its fun and I enjoy it and it makes me feel good gettting dressed up and being told repeatedly how amazing you look. The new hair went down well with all my family and friends too which was good :)

Anywho, I'm going to leave you with the lyrical amazingness of one of my favourite bands... Muse.

I can't remember when it was good
moments of happiness elude
maybe I just misunderstood

all of the love we left behind
watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find

so I'll love whatever you become
and forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun

and I'll feel my world crumbling,
and I'll I feel my life crumbling
and feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away,
falling away with you

staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
I hope I won't forget a thing

promise to hold you close and pray
watching the fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same

and all of the love we threw away
and all of the hopes we've cherished fade
making the same mistakes again
making the same mistakes again

and I feel my world crumbling,
and I feel my life crumbling down,
I can feel my soul crumbling away,
and falling away,
falling away with you

all of the love we left behind
watching the flash backs intertwine
memories I will never find
memories I will never find

Muse - Falling Away With You <3

Much Love
Fi Out.
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Side Note. Sheepy (shaun) is F'ing Awesome!