Fear And Panic In The Air...

*clears throat*

I haven't written anything in a while, I seem to have been swept up in a whirlwind of busy-ness, between working, the new boyfriend, and friends I havent had a whole lot of spare time. I thought it best to update now though, otherwise my next update would be so incredibly huge that it would take days to write.

Biggest update I think is that I'm taking my niece to see YouMeAtSix in London on the 15th December for her birthday :D I'm very much looking forward to this, ymas are a AWESOME band and Katie loves them xD

Mark's best friend Daniel, is dating a girl called Katie Gee that I used to go to school with. Small world eh? Well consequently I got her a job where I work and I spent Friday night with her, noming lasagne, drinking wine and discussing Muse and various other awesome bands :D was fun.

Chimaira, Lacuna Coil, Athlete and Elliot Minor are also playing near me soon and I wanna see them all!!!

Having only 1 job is difficult, Not because I'm earning less, cause I'm not, but because I have to keep myself occupied. The last month it hasnt been too hard, but its getting more difficult, and I'm finding myself being bored. I hate it >.< As a result of this, my thoughts of learning to play the Guitar are coming true, I've even choosen the one I want!


Its a SCHECTER Omen Extreme, Now I'm going to pretend to know a whole lot about guitars cause I don't. So, here's a blurb from the website for those of you who know about guitars :)

"The Schecter Omen-6 FR is a truly unique instrument, its sleek, no-frills design features deep, sculpted cutaway access to the upper frets, extreme body sculpting and a smooth, black gloss finish. It is equipped with two Schecter High Output humbucker pickups, a basswood body and bolt-on maple neck. It's Licensed Floyd Rose Locking Tremolo and 24 jumbo frets make this instrument a real joy to play."

Eeeeeee I'm excited xD

Lessons are gonna be £15 each and the Guitar is around £350. But its SEXY.

I have a lot to do this afternoon, Mark's coming over but I'm not sure what time =/ and he's cooking for me... this should be interesting!

I best be off and tidy up and beautify myself.

Oh and I plan to write reviews of all the gigs I go to see :)

Much Love
Fifi
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It's a Fez, I wear a Fez now. Fez' are cool xD

So yea.. Fez'... A felt hat, kinda like a cone worn by strange men, in hot countries. Matt Smith looks kinda hot in a Fez..

Aha.. This post isn't going to be about Fez' but it is going to be about men I find extremely Hot/Interesting/Amazing or all three. From both Film, TV Shows and Music :D Should be a fun post! (I've got plenty of time to kill after being told I got a hour n a half more to wait!)

Matt Smith!

Lets start with his essentials shall we?

Hair Colour: Brown
Eyes: Green
Height: 5ft10ish
DOB: 28th October 1982

Okay.. So how cool is this.. Me and Matt Smith have the same f'ing birthday! I've only just found this out but it makes me very very happy xD

Okay.. So Matt Smith.. with his rather large chin, floppy hair, tweed jacket and bow tie, it doesn't exactly make for the most conventionally good looking man. But there is something rather compelling about him, both on TV and off. Of course he doesn't dress like the Doctor in his day to day life, more often than not opting for skinny trousers, cool jackets and the odd hat. Oh and he also seems to be a fan of scarfs!

When he was first announced as the new Doctor I was both excited and apprehensive. I love Dr Who and he seemed SO different to David Tennant I wondered if it would work, but after seeing the first episode and hearing his rather lovely "Geronimo!!" as the Tardis crashed I knew we were in for a treat! And oh boy did he deliver. Witty lines, Scenes that made you burst into tears, and that certain pzazz and style that only Matt Smith has.

Who'd have known that not only is he an amazing actor, but he originally planned to be a professional footballer? His skills on the pitch can clearly be seen in Episode 11 - The Lodger, where he plays in the local pub team. Oh and he gets his top off too ;) Not one of my favourite episodes from the newest series, a half naked and wet Matt Smith certainly made up for it.
He has a chemistry on screen and you are connected with him, he engages his audience and traps them. He's an extremely quirky and funny Doctor and I am very much looking forward to seeing him in the new series next year!

Side Note - Matt Smith is bloody gorgeous!!!! Tehe

Okay, So onto the next Man.. xD and who else could I pick but..

Matt Bellamy!

I do realise this is the second Matt I've picked.. Maybe my letter obsession has slipped from A to M...

Anywho! Essentials!

Hair Colour: Natural hair colour we think is Brown... but hes been, Red, Black, Blue, Pink, Blonde and many more besides! (my personal fave was Red!)
Eye Colour: Blue (om nom)
Height: 5ft7
DOB: 9th June 1978

Musical Fucking Genius. Period. His lyrics are incredible, his talents at playing pretty much any instrument is phenomenal and his ear for creating the most amazing and intriguing sounds leave you (well me) breathless. There isn't a Muse song I don't like, and the man himself is just well :D

I watched a interview the other day where Matt described himself as a "confident" person rather than the more cocky version of a front man, and that made me smile, because he's just lovely! His vocal range is impressive adding depth to his songs, while his moving and thoughtful lyrics give the listener something to think about. There is, in my opinion nothing better than chilling out with Muse playing.

His love of conspiracy theories and sc-fi make him a quirky individual, who is extremely interesting to listen to and his love of both of these can plainly be seen in his music.

Being insatiable comes naturally to this man, even if he does think hes too short to be sexy :P

And just because I think its "cool" this was Matt's answer when Q Magazine asked him what he would do if he had a Tardis..

"I think I’d probably go back to the mid-19th century and I’d try to cash in on the late Romantic piano music period and start hanging out with people like Berlioz and Chopin and maybe Rachmaninoff later on. I’d try to blend in with posh ponces playing the piano."

*dances*

So yea.. Matt Bellamy.. INCREDIBLE man.. If I thought I would ever have the chance...I'd marry him.. and I'm not the marrying kind!

As those are my main two "boys" at the moment hehehe.. I'm going to post the pictures of the other Men I find yummy etc and write a smaller amount about them :)


Alex Gaskarth!

YUMMY! *noms on him* His band are fucking awesome too -
All Time Low = Love. Amazing music..

Born 14/12/1987 it makes him younger than me :D Bless him. He is still one hell of a sexy beast of a front man...

The other members of the band, Zachary Merrick, Rian Dawson, and Jack Barakat are pretty nom worthy too :D



David Tennant!!

Sexy ass doctor with his skinny jeans and converse.... *drools*

Really made Dr Who for me.. just brought it to life in a way that was totally unique and amazing. Oh and his scottishness OM NOM NOM! <3>

Oh! and I swear I saw him on a train once! Oh yea hes 30 years old ;) Older men ftw yey!

Well, these are the main 4, I may post one of these about women one day so the guys have something yummy to look at hehe

<3>

Fifi Out
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'Lo

Well, I ain't posted for a while, mostly cause I've been confused. Unsure what I wanted and unsure how I felt. I think mostly I was just running scared. I didn't want to get involved with someone again because of the pain and hurt it can cause, and after Andy, I think I'd had about as much pain as I could take. But someone close to me reminded me that you cannot live life without risks, and if you want something then grasp it with both hands before it disappears.

No one is perfect, and people make mistakes, and sometimes there are some people who rip your heart out and then stand on it a few times to make it worse. But not everyone is like that. Not everyone is going to get close to you and then break you heart. The biggest problem is knowing which ones will and which wont. This is something you cant know until it happens, but in the same token you cant spend your entire life waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Bad things happen, sometimes more to some people than to others, but its your ability to pick yourself back up and try again that matters. I refused to let myself fall into being okay with second best and not trying anymore because I'm frightened of getting hurt. My gut instinct is that this time? I wont get hurt, that whichever way this goes, I'll be okay, but that's mostly cause I'm a stronger person than I used to be. I don't need someone else to complete me. I'm me exactly how I am and if someone doesn't like it? Well go to hell.

I'm never gonna change who I am, or what I say or do for anyone, because I shouldn't have to. Being fake and lying can only be kept up for so long before something makes you crack. Also.. If the person your with, or in fact anyone who's close to you, hurts you, lies, or does something to make you feel shit. Then you have to think to yourself, are they really worth the hassle? Most of the time the answer is No. I'm not talking about petty disagreements either, I'm talking about the big stuff. Stuff that matters.

I think this time I'm just gonna let everything take its course, and if I fall in love or even if I don't? Whatever happens, then that's fine, because this time I know I've been honest with myself. I've not forced myself to feel anything that's not there.... yet.

I have to say though, that when I'm with him, curled up on the sofa, I feel like that is EXACTLY where I'm meant to be.

- Side note, Job is going excellent, Money is going Excellent. I can't WAIT to get my bed! And I'm contemplating buying a guitar and learning to play! I've always wanted to and I'm like... well why the hell not!?!?!

Love n Hugs

Fifi
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Om Nom Nom

Hehe.. Food was delicious even if I do say so myself :) Mark seemed to like it anyway xD

I can't believe how everything has slotted into place over the last 4 weeks. Part of me is waiting for the other shoe to drop and for something to go drastically wrong. Afterall every other time I've got to the point of being this happy something has come along and crashed it all =/ I'm really hoping that doesnt happen this time. I think I deserve some happiness in my life!

Other people I could mention however deserve no fucking happiness whatsoever and need to go and jump of a very high cliff, ensuring all their bones break and then die in a big mess on the floor. Painfully. Okay.. that might sound harah. But seriously? Is it so hard to be happy for me rather than be consumed by your own selfishness? You want to be my friend you want me in your life, but what about what I want? Just, leave. me. alone. Simple. I dont know how many times I have to tell you this. I've had to block you just cause you wouldnt take the fricking hint!

Sorry, rant over. Anywho.. I really am happy :) even if things piss me off occasionally, inside I feel amazing, -nothing- can go wrong. nadda. nowt. Well at least it bloody better not do :D

They say that everyone has a someone out there waiting for them, well maybe I've been lucky enough to find mine. Who knows. I guess only time will tell :)

<3

Goodnight.. I'm off to the land of dreams
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Avatar and Shizzle

So.... I had a totally amazing Friday night, watched Avatar and then had snuggles on the sofa with a certain special someone :)

We then laid in my room and listened to Muse and debated the lyrical genius that is Matt Bellamy... because lets face it... He is like.. A god. A sexy one at that.

I really wanna go see Muse, but we checked out tickets and their gigs this year are all sold out, so we are gonna keep our open for next year <3

I love the way he makes me feel. Its just so laid back and so easy. We can just cuddle for hours and hours just talking about nothing and everything at all and we never run out of things to discuss. Maybe its cause its all so new.. or maybe this is how its meant to be. Just easy.. and neither of you have to break your back to find conversation or feel comfortable around each other.

Ohhh on a different note, im getting a double bed! I cant wait, so much more compfy than this thing and if a certain someone is gonna be staying over ima need it :D Mark (thats his name) is coming over tomorrow night im cooking dinner.. hehe. Tuna steaks in lemon and cracked black pepper sauce, with boiled tatoes and salad. Should be dead yum.

You Give The Best Cuddles xD

Fifi Out!
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Hmmmmm

Well...

Yesterday was very interesting.. to say the least. Park, Sun, Grass, Milkshake, Cookies, Jacket Potatoe's, Alice In Wonderland, Photo's, Muse!, Om Noms and Wine. Yeh ok fucking good day! Tehe.

Taking things slow for the win tho I think. Totally unable to fuck anything up that way.

Avatar today :) Chilling out on the sofa. Roll on 6pm.

"You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love"

Life is gooooooood xD. I can't believe what a turn around I have undertaken in the last month. Everything feels so different. Its a good different.

I bloody ache tho, walking around town for 5 hours leads to achey legs and shizzle, plus lots of wine the night before leads to feeling a ickle bit icky. But oh well, I definately had fun.

<3Why Do You Only Fly Me Half Way To The Moon?<3

Anywho..

See Ya!!
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Life

Wow.. well... life.. yes :D love it.

I have a date.... or at least I think its a date.. A guy has asked me out, just the two of us.. to go to the park and hang out and have ice cream.. well anyway.. im excited.

Its this Thursday and now all I have to do is decide what to wear, I was thinking, leggings, converse, cool skirt and t-shirt, kinda relaxed.. perfect for a day at the park... or i could go and wear my maxi dress... specially if the weather is nice.. that looks stunning on... hmm choices.

My niece thinks the Maxi dress, so I think as long as the weather is good, that will be my choice.

"turn it up turn it up for the people that say, were moving on and we'll be okay.. :D" <<>

Anywho.. not much more to write.. im too hyped up to think..

I shall update once this "date" has gone ahead!

Lots of Love!
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